She was sitting in the waiting room with a veil over her head and her dress overflowing her body like vines. Her friends and family had went out to welcome guests now and left her waiting alone, quiet enough for her to condense her thoughts. The six months after her engagement had flown by like a whirlwind, too fast for her to carefully consider anything else ever since she had said "yes"; the amount of preparation was overwhelming, and she had been too caught up trying to decide miscellaneous issues instead of determining whether she really loved this man or not, which was supposed to be a given in the first place.
She was sure of it at first, or else she would not have agreed. But now as she sat alone, finally a peaceful time ever since the rush of events, the dream she had last night was flashing in her mind like lightening, like thunder, like damage. She was prone to dreaming, but the past half year had wiped out her possible imaginations and flooded her with thoughts of wedding dresses, floral napkins and bouquets instead. Then the night before she was about to fall into the arms of the same man forever, she dreamed she was in love... with somebody else.
It all seems very silly, she kept telling herself that as she sat perfectly still staring at her readied reflection from the mirror. But the more she tried to make a big joke out of this the more it had bothered her. She saw the image of a man in her head, hazy and mystic, as if she was looking through a fogged up window, but she knew he was there. He was as real as anyone was, and their brief encounter was enough to mean the world. Nothing much had happened in the dream, they were merely taking a walk down a breaded path, hand in hand and esoteric as a night-time church; the whole occasion was silent but something was there that filled up the empty air with omens and suggestions.
The past three years she had been with her fiance were fun and jaded. They worked, traveled, and rested when they were worn. She was extremely comfortable with him and laughed often. She thought that was happiness and she thought that was love. But not once had she looked at him the same way she saw the man last night. After walking down the path they had halted and he had turned around to face her; she knew it as an instinct and felt it as a desire, she felt it in his gaze and saw it in his eyes although she could not see them, and she knew it was love, as descriptive and factual as it had ever been.
This was not the first time she's had a dream like this. She had fell in love with many men before the same obscure way. Some of them she had known and some of them were strangers. Some she had lived a lifetime with, and some she had only shared brief moments with. It didn't matter what the extent was, for each time she had awoken to a forlorn feeling of losing someone; it was more painful than losing someone in real life, for most of the times when she's lost someone, someone had lost her too. It was a communal experience rather than the lopsided dump she was stuck with dealing alone, and moreover, no one knows it exists except for her.
She dreams of friends and dreams of family. She dreams of her loves and dreams of her hates. She knows they exist for she dreams of them, and she knows they are of somewhat importance for they surface her subconscious routinely. Not once had her fiance entered her dreams in any shape of form, as a friend or as a lover, and probably will not as family either. She exhaled slowly and loudly as she came to thought of this, until the very last breath of air had ran out and faded like a hushed engine. She looked quite pretty in the mirror as all brides should, but a look of vulnerability clouded her frowns, then cleared up again as she picked up her cellphone and dialed.
He rushed in with drops of sweat gliding down the side of his face like an intermittent slide. He looked quite handsome that day too, she admitted to herself, and almost unlike the man she had known and was going to marry in the near future. He had a puzzled look and when he saw her, laced up and sitting calmly on the wooden chair, he questioned the urgency.
"Why'd you tell me to come all this way... the ceremony's starting in half an hour.."