POLLUTING

i am seeing light again
have i almost forgotten you
you're full of inconsiderations but i 
still love you, do i
try to hate you try to hate you
this will cure me forget you
hate is strong hate is love
hate is everything that is my god help me
i do not wish to love him longer more
i'm sad full of forlorn
i want to hate every breath of you your smile your eyes
i cannot forget how they look
they're little crystals in my mind 
every time u use them against my shallow heart
they pierce me so your smile your eyes
where have u learned such tricks your smile your eyes
lock me so with your smile your eyes
end it so with your smile your eyes
i'll kill them i could stab them with my knife
but i will never forget them your darling face
where do i learn the courage to forget forgive so much forlorn
you and all of you im so afraid
for you to leave to go far up but 
i dont want you to stay here in my mind your smile your eyes